Here we go again

Well almost two months went by since I heard back from my sister to the email I sent and no surprise she misinterpreted it and responded with a nasty letter.  To read the letter you would think she didn’t even use the email as a point of reference.  I vacillate between anger and resignation but need to respond and set the record straight, so to speak.  More to follow…..

let’s pretend…..yeah, right!

It has been almost a month since I sent my sister an email responding to her’s in which she stated she would prefer to just act as if nothing has happened.  Needless to say, I did not agree.  I basically told her that things were said and done in the first few months of this year that were intentionally hurtful.  Of course, it is ironic that the person who feels justified in having someone to listen to them when they feel they have been insulted or angered does not wish to allow others to express themselves similarly.  She will bully a person into indulging her need to express herself but refuses to listen to someone when she has offended them.  It is sad to realize that she is not the person I thought she was, but rather a small-minded, frightened bully.

Go see GYPSY@CityCenter in NYC

It has been weeks since I posted anything here.  I just haven’t felt much like writing.  Things with the siblings are pretty much status quo, though my sister sent me some pics of the kids and I sent an email thanking her and telling her when classes are over in a few weeks maybe we can talk.  We’ll see what happens.  I do not feel like getting into anything with her right now.

I have been a little lazy today, not accomplishing half of the things I intended.  But don’t we all have those days?

Go see Gypsy at the City Center in NYC this month if you can.  Patti LuPone is turning in fierce performance.  She really is the embodiment of old Broadway star quality.  And, trust me, the rest of the cast is great, too.  Run, don’t walk, because it closes July 29th.

I can’t believe I am still not feeling well.  Every time I think I am better, the next day I wake up with something else bothering me.  Now, again, my head is like a leaking faucet.  I can’t stand it.  This is going on a couple of weeks now.  It all started with my throat, then a head cold, then my chest, now my head again.  UGH!

I was fortunate enought to see the True Colors Tour at Radio City Music Hall on Monday night.  Cyndi Lauper is amazing and Erasure rocked it out.  Debbie Harry did not sing one Blondie song, which was very disappointing.  Instead she sang songs from her upcoming album which were pretty lackluster.  The other acts were great, especially the always hilarious Margaret Cho.  If this tour is coming to your city, go see it!!!

The familiy drama is on the back burner.  Not feeling well has left me little desire to pursue any conversation with the siblings.

Cyndi Lauper from the tour!

Let’s Hear it for Massachusetts!!!

Bid to Ban Gay Marriage Fails in Massachusetts

My faith and hope are renewed!  If only I lived in Massachusetts. 

nothing much, just a rant on kelly ripa

I find Kelly Ripa very annoying.  I used to like her.  In fact, when she first joined with Regis I enjoyed her.  But somewhere along the way she became irritating.  Perhaps it is the fact that she wants to engage in self-deprecating humor which falls flat.  Or perhaps it is the way she wants people to believe she is still just like the rest of us.  But how many of us have a second home in the Hamptons?  Whatever it is, I just turned on the TV and  Live with Regis & Kelly came on and there she was to irritate me.  Wait, maybe it’s the way she laughs at all of her own jokes, like she is the funniest thing going.  I know change the channel but Joan Rivers is on today and I could use a dose of her humor.  I still don’t feel well and I am hoping Joan will at least give me a chuckle or two.  I don’t know what it is that I still don’t feel well.  Every day I wake up feeling like a ton of bricks fell on me.  My chest is tight and my throat is scratchy.  And of course the gray clouds overhead today does not help at all.  I am just sitting here staring out the window wishing the sun would break through.

Mental Health Day with Barbara Walters, UGH!

Today was a mental health day.  I haven’t felt well in over a week now and decided this morning to just sleep in and then laze around all afternoon.  It felt so good.  I have been working like a fiend between classes and work.  One would assume that last week spent at the beach would have helped but it didn’t.  I think I just needed some time at home, relaxing, and recuperating from the past few months’ insanity.  So what did I foolishly do?  I started to watch The View.  Without Rosie O’Donnell this show has just returned to its previous format with Barbara Walters leading a bunch of hens in a gabfest about nothing of importance.  At least with Rosie the conversations were about real issues.  Now Barbara Walters wants us to know about what she and Paris Hilton talked over the weekend. Who cares?  Barbara Walters needs to retire, go shopping, and spend time with her daughter.  She is past her prime and I think this past year between Star Jones and Rosie O’Donnell she has proven just how phoney-baloney she is.  Let’s pretend everything is fine as I stab you in the back.  I will publicly deny any contract negotiations or conversations with Donald Trump.  Blah!  Blah!  Blah!  I was never a fan of Barbara Walters’ and am even less of one now.  I think she is an attention-needy sychophant.  She latches on to key political and entertainment figures and tries to ensure that she is the first and only one to nab conversations with people.  Please!

And what is with the support of Alberto Gonzales?  I thought key Republicans were certain of this guy’s shady dealings.  I am afraid of what is happening in D.C.  I am seriously concerned about what is going to occur when the Bush tenure is over at the White House.  The secret deals and legislation won’t be unearthed for years.  The country is bankrupt and people don’t get it.  And where is the Democrat with a spine to lead the charge against this facist regime?

How do I go from relishing in my mental health day to bashing Barbara Walters to my concerns about the state of the country?  What a crazy train of thought.  Well, time to get some dinner and get ready to watch Kathy Griffin’s My Life on the D-List.  I love that show!

paris, lindsay, and me

What in the world is going on?  Paris goes to jail.  Paris goes home.  Paris goes back to jail.  Lindsay goes to rehab.  Lindsay leaves rehab to go shopping.  Lindsay returns to rehab.  Lindsay leaves rehab.  Lindsay crashes her car while drunk and leaves the scene.  Lindsay enters rehab.  The fact that these stories merit such media attention is distressing to me and proof that the world is just getting more surreal with each passing day. 

It’s funny to me when I reflect on my own life at that age.  How desperately I wanted fame.  How much I longed for the spotlight without any real thought as to what that may involve.  And all of that desire led me down the same path many of these young girls are on now: late nights at clubs, outlandish behavior, and youthful arrogance.  Thank goodness I didn’t do it under the watchful eye of the media and the general population.  Instead, I was forced to take responsibility for the nasty things I said or did to my family and friends because they wouldn’t let me get away with any of it.  Perhaps this is what these young women in Hollywood need.  Someone unafraid to tell them they can enjoy themselves without making fools of themselves, that obviously they have some serious issues they need to address, that they just need to knock it off. 

I wonder though how many young men and women today are growing up without someone to guide them.  So many families I see today are led by parents who want to be seen more as a friend than a parent.  They want to hang out with their kids.  I don’t know whether it is a reaction to their own parenting or what.  However, the time for children to have that type of relationship is when they themselves are adults, too; creating their own lives and families.

And speaking of families, more emails this week.  I will write about them later.  For now I will go join my partner on the porch for our last night at the beach house.

wishing i felt better

I don’t feel well today, which is unfortunate since we came to the beach rental for the week today.  It’s amazing to be right on the beach.  Any time I ever stayed at the beach before I never had the good fortune to stay right on the beach.  So this is a real treat!  Understandably I wish I felt better so I could fully enjoy it.  Thank, G*D we’ll be here all week.

Tomorrow is my Mom’s birthday.  I will not be celebrating it with her since she will be spending the day with my siblings.  I have been thinking a lot about the current status of my relationships with my siblings over the last few days.  I’m sure it is because of my mother’s birthday.  It saddens me to feel the gap between us growing wider with each passing day.  The more time that passes, the greater my desire to stay distant.  You know, it’s funny how they are completely unable to see that it is their own actions which fuel my desire to not meet with the directors of my Mom’s facility or discuss the financial arrangements.  At this point, they will do whatever they must to keep my mother happy so anything I do will be helping them and not her.  Ugh!  It all just seems so petty when I sit here and write about it.  I can’t help them anyway.

I find myself writing things tonight and then deleting them.  I feel like I want to write yet don’t care for what comes up.  Maybe it’s because I don’t feel well.  Perhaps I should just call it a day and blog when my head is clearer.

before bed banter

There are some people in this world who are just plain crazy!  You wonder, “How do they get that way?”  Certainly the adorable bundles brought home from the hospital have something happen to them as they develop into children and young adults.  I am writing this because we finished this project today and this one woman in the project is certifiable.  I have never worked on a group project where one group member insisted on doing there on thing so much that they essentially hung themselves out to dry.  All I can say is, “Thank G*D, that’s over!”

You know what I think is interesting, more people in this country are talking about Rosie O’Donnell leaving “The View” three weeks early than the fact that our Attorney General should be removed from office and hasn’t been.  Even respectable Republicans think he should step down.  Why is there no one clamoring for this to happen?  Becasue we have been lulled into complacency.  I just wonder what it will be to really shake the citizens of this country awake.  I fear it is only a matter of time before something happens.  Exactly what it will be I don’t know.  I hope that when it does occur we have a competent leader in the White House.

Tomorrow is the first day of June.  Summer is just around the corner.  I can’t wait.  I need some extended days of sun and fun.  It’s late and I am getting tired.  i just wanted to clear my head of these thoughts before bed.